When Kevin and I decided to try to conceive almost a year ago, I just knew we would end up seeing a fertility specialist. I had this feeling in my gut and intuition that wouldn’t go away. Four months later, I was sitting in my doctor’s office explaining my situation when she sarcastically said,” why did you wait so long to try to have a baby? Followed by “do you have thousands and thousands of dollars for fertility treatment? You’ll probably have to use donor eggs; do you want that?” She ended by saying, “why don’t you get healthy? If you get pregnant, you get pregnant if you don’t.” I was reeling. I asked if she would refer me to an OB/GYN she said, “there is nothing a gynecologist can do for you.” I ran out of her office crying.
“Intuition will tell the thinking man where to look next.” Dr. Jonas Salk
I drove to Target never got off; instead, I cried. I cried so much I cried myself to sleep. I woke up looking at the time and realized my spin class was starting soon, and I thought, what better way to clear my head than a good ride. After class, we talked; I was telling them about my doctor visit when one of the ladies told me her daughter was going through IVF. She told me, “I know exactly what you are going through.” The ladies gathered around me. I asked, “why won’t God answer my prayers?” One lady sarcastically said, “maybe He has” I remember looking at her and thinking maybe He has? What are you talking about? I told her I wasn’t praying to have infertility.
“Whether you turn to the right or the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” ”
Isaiah 30:21 NIV
All that week, I prayed for God’s discernment that Friday I kept hearing, “call the insurance company, call the insurance company over and over again.” My doctor’s office warned me that my insurance would not cover anything related to infertility, so I was a bit apprehensive about calling.
I worked up enough courage and made the call. I explained to the man who answered everything that happened. He put me on hold, came back, and said, “ok, I have a plan for you” he figured out a way to get me into an OB/GYN without going through my doctor for a referral. He recommended a doctor to me. I hung up, called, and got in right away.
After going over everything with the gynecologist, she looked at me. She said, “you are not too old, and why don’t we start at the beginning testing you for everything before you see an infertility doctor.” She called out all these acronyms and started filling out the paperwork for tests. I left the office full of hope. I just knew this is where I was supposed to be.
Since the beginning, we have prayed and asked for God to lead us, and He has. Some of us have, including me, following where He leads and trusting Him completely. This is a testimony to praying without ceasing and letting God take care of everything, not just some things.
XOXO
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