Living Jenn

A LIFESTYLE BLOG ABOUT MARRIAGE, INFERTILITY, AND LIFE

What Do You Put Your Hope In

After being diagnosed with infertility, I took to Google and searched for every product claiming to aid, help, fix, or cure us. I would send Kevin pictures and say, “we need this” Kevin’s reply was always the same “whatever you think we need.” I was so desperate I would have tried anything, and everything; my desperation and longing for a baby were overshadowing my faith and hope.

One day Kevin asked me what I put my hope in? Is it Google or God? Is it a product making a claim, or is God? I quickly answered God, of course! I heard that question played over and over again in my mind for the next few weeks. One day, I sent Kevin a message while he was at work. I said, “my hope and faith is in God, not Google. I’m going to give everything over to God and no longer worry about my infertility.” That was the day that everything changed for me.

My hope and faith are not found in a bottle of supplements, a book claiming to cure me, a meditation claiming to give me a double line, a bracelet that has healing powers, a life coach or fitness coach that claims they can turn my life around and get me pregnant with a snap of a finger. I’m not saying I’m right or wrong; I’m saying these things are just not the end all be all for me. It doesn’t mean I don’t take supplements; I do or meditate because I do. We should do what makes us feel good. What makes me feel good is to go on living and not let my infertility control my life.

XOXO,
Jenn

P.S. We never bought any of those products.

God Will Deliver Us From Our Misery

This year when Starbucks released their Christmas cup collection, I knew instantly which one I wanted. Every time I was out, I would say to myself, “I’ll get it later” Kevin even asked me a few times, and I would say the same thing “I’ll get it later.” Well, a few weeks ago, later came, and the cup sold out online, so I drove to a few stores, and no luck; it seems this cup was so popular it sold out right away. After a trip to a gym outside my area, I decided to stop and see if any stores in that area had the cup. I parked and prayed sort of jokingly, “Lord, this is it; this is the last store I’m stopping (which was the first store) at; please let them have the mug.” God knows my love for mugs, so this prayer doesn’t surprise Him.

I walked in, looked around, and there was MY CUP! I was so excited I walked up to the Barista and said, “I just prayed that you would have this cup, and here it is.” Smiling and laughing, I then said, “God delivers us from our misery.” The Barista replied, “Hallelujah! Yes, HE does!” Taken back, my eyes filled with tears, I looked at the Barista and said, “excuse me?” He replied, “God will always deliver us from misery. God will always redeem us.” I thanked the young man with tears rolling down and told him how much I needed to hear that right now.
I love how God places signs or people in our path to reaffirm what we know to reassure us of His promise to us. I hope this story will do for you what it did for me, and may you know whatever you are going through right now, whatever misery you are in, God will deliver you from it.

XOXO,
Jenn

PS I’m giving away FOUR Val Marie Paper Prayer Journals TWO winners plus TWO people they tag! Go back to Instagram, look for the post announcing this blog post, and tag a person you think would like a prayer journal. Good luck! Winners will be chosen at random and announced on Tuesday, December 30th.

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